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July 5, 2009
7:34 am
Road Trip.
We arrived in North Carolina on Friday, and I have to say, that was probably the most interesting road trip I’ve ever been on. Quite amusing to think about, really. We stopped at this gas station in Virginia and I ended up meeting this handsome fellow. It was awkward (well, as always, the awkward part was mostly me), but he was nice! He told me where he was from, where he was going and some other things, but unfortunately everything but his name. Oh well. It was something my family wouldn’t stop teasing me about all the way down to NC, which was, according to anonymous boy, three and a half hours away. He was so cute, damn! Not really my type, but I definitely swooned.
July 2, 2009
3:45 pm
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She & Him - Please, Please, Please Let Me Get What I Want (Smiths cover)
Haven’t had a dream in a long time. See, the life I’ve had can make a good man turn bad. So for once in my life, let me get what I want. Lord knows it would be the first time.
She & Him covering the Smiths? Lord knows I’m swooning. It’s been nearly a year since I first met and saw Zooey and Matt at Terminal 5 last summer. Probably one of my most favorite nights ever. Puts a smile on my face every time I think about it. The fun I had that night just can’t be repeated. I loved every second of it!
2:41 pm
Garden State.
In a few hours I’ll be off to Jersey, where my aunt and uncle reside. They’ll be moving to North Carolina soon, so we’ll be road tripping down to the south later tonight. I’m not looking forward to the disgusting one million-degree weather, but good times are certainly going to be had so I’m at least looking forward to that part. We’ll be driving back up to New York/Jersey on the 11th of July. And then after that I’ll only have three weeks and a day left to spend in the city, the place I call home. It’s pretty sad to know that I only have such little time, but I’m going to make the most out of it until I come back again next year. Things have been moving full speed ahead now that I really think about it. Kind of a crazy thought, but I’m ecstatic nonetheless. I’m just crossing my fingers for a great rest of the year. 2009 has been all over the place!
July 1, 2009
3:32 pm
The Pursuit of Happyness.
To me, happiness is two things: a state of mind, or that genuine feeling of contentment. I’ve had my share of both. The more I try to convince myself that I’m happy, the more I actually believe it. In reality, outside of the brain, everything is a mess. Eventually, one becomes numb to all the pain and in their head, it all goes away. But genuine happiness is so easily attainable, more than we let ourselves think or actually know. With that said, I’ve come to realize that I let the little things bother me too much. Little things, simple things that I could really live without. I could be so happy, but I let myself get tied down with sticky situations that I unknowingly lead myself into until I’m actually there, getting sucked into a vortex of sadness and frustration. Maybe I shouldn’t blame myself, maybe I should blame somebody else, but I won’t. I’d rather take the heat for something I myself did, no matter the help received from others. Because in the end, it’s only me that is really fully capable of making myself happy. It’s the same with the opposite situation. But no matter how messy things can get, the good can always outweigh the bad. The pessimist in me just tends to take over and block everything else out, and I admit that it’s a really bad habit. Right now, I’m not sure where I stand, but as far as I can tell.. I’m alright. Things may not be entirely good, but they’ll get better. I’m working my way into being genuinely content with whatever life gives me.
2:41 pm
Empty spaces.
I have no idea why, but whenever I open a blank space to write in and fill my thoughts with, everything goes out the window. For some reason I always seem to end up sitting here with a tongue filled with a thousand or so words, simply searching for the right ones to say when I already had them to begin with. It’s a little frustrating. There’s just so much I want to say or wish I could say, and to be honest I’m a little sick of this routine. Maybe it’s because there’s so much in my head. Too much. Or maybe in my heart? Possibly, probably. Maybe I’m afraid of who might read it, what I might say. Maybe it’s because I don’t want to say anything I’ll eventually feel horrible about. I don’t want to give away too much, but at the same time, I don’t want to be subtle. I want to pour every little thought out and feel liberated at the end of it. Writing is always therapeutic for me, but blank spaces are so intimidating. I always have this strong desire to fill everything up with words and words and more words. Or just art. Music. Color. Some form of life. Anything and everything, really. Occasionally I have a strong appreciation for silence, because it can be comforting and relaxing, but most of the time I’d always rather fill it up with music or conversation. I don’t know where this is going anymore, or if it even had direction to begin with. To be continued, perhaps? At least this formerly big white space isn’t so empty anymore. Words are always good company. Most of the time, anyway.
June 30, 2009
4:06 pm
’80s videogames in Lego form. This is way too cool!
